Today is an anniversary of sorts. It was ten years ago that I received the email that would forever change my life. Initially shocking and unbelievable, in time it changed my thoughts, my heart, my marital status, my geography and so much more. I had not thought about anything specific being tied t today’s date until I read my morning devotional.
It was Psalm 37, specifically verses 23-40 pertaining to God’s will. What an abstract thing that can be. But several thoughts occurred to me as I read the and pondered the words.
First, because of the events of September 16, 2003 and the months to follow, I can now say I know I am blessed to know God’s will. (most of the time) I can hear His words when I take the time to listen and ask. And I can reap the blessings that come with obeying His wishes for me. What an honor to be a child of the High and Holy King! I did not have that honor ten years ago.
Verse 24 appealed to me: “though he (I) fall, he (I) shall not be cast down, for the Lord upholds (me) with His hand (emphasis/modify mine) I am grateful for that mercy because I still continue to fall
Verses 34-39 spoke of waiting on the Lord, how the wicked who prosper now with pass away in time and the righteous will inherit the land, to be preserved forever, will know God’s mercy and be exalted. And I believe this will happen. I have no doubts. What struck me is how long this sometimes takes. So very long. In my case, ten years and still waiting on some of that to happen. Actually, longer than ten years.
But what is time to God? What is a span of ten years? Or longer? Nothing. A mere breath. A vapor of mist. Here for but a moment and gone.
But the lessons I have learned in those years are priceless. And necessary to achieve the blessings of verses 34-39.
If all our unfair trials and tribulations came and went within a period of hours or days, weeks even, we would never learn to wait on the Lord, listen for His word, have the faith to step out in obedience to His will. That all takes lots of time spent in the fiery furnace.
So while I don’t like the fact there are things in this world that take a long time to achieve, when I look back and see so much progress and positive growth mixed in with those stumbling steps where I sometimes fall, I have to pause and be grateful. I also have to admit to a few moments of plain old arms-crossed, balking disobedience as well, until the lesson is learned fully.
So on this anniversary, I am happy. I have the continual opportunity to change my ways, grow, learn and one day inherit a Holy Kingdom. What a special gift.