Posts Tagged ‘growing up’

Today as I lay in bed and watched dark turn to light, my mind drifted back about four decades when Saturday morning meant two things: Mom making us a nice breakfast and Saturday morning cartoons. These were standards we could count on. Breakfast would be something like French toast or pancakes and cartoons were Scooby Doo, the Flintstones, The Jetsons and a few other favorites. Early animation at its best.

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After a hearty meal and a couple hours of cartoons and probably some School House Rock, it was time to let the rest of our day unfold.

Those carefree Saturdays are long gone behind me, but the memories apparently still linger. The deeper question is what made me think of that now, today, after all these years? So, as an excuse to lay in bed a bit longer, I pondered that. And here is what I’ve come up with…

As a kid, we usually can’t wait to grow up. The whole string of childhood years is marked by “I can’t wait to be ___ years old!” or “I can’t wait until I grow up!”, at which point we do mature and quickly wish we were kids again. Responsibility is a tough word,  both to spell and to live with. Perhaps, at some subliminal level, my subconscious is seeking a break from all this adulting stuff and wishes to spend a little time in that easier era where the weight on my shoulders wasn’t quite so heavy.

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The other thought is this: we are living in uncertain, scary times. To a lesser degree, so do most kids. So much is out of a child’s control, they are at the mercy of so much we adults don’t usually stop to consider. There is so much they don’t understand yet and so much they worry about. The questions we adults are asking during the pandemic are similar to what kids routinely ask. Granted, the weight of those questions differ greatly, but the emotions are familiar.

So could my mental stroll back to youth been another subconscious break from the pandemic stress? Could I have been connecting with the child of my past, where we can share questions rooted in uncertainty and worry, and see that it all worked out back then,  so I can assure myself it will probably work out now? Back then, and through the years, I’ve had to reinvent myself and find a new normal when the old ones were ripped away. It was tough, scary, rough, and stressful, but I managed, took those leaps of faith, and landed on my feet. This would be no different.

The kid that lived for Saturday morning cartoons and French toast is the same kid that stumbles to the coffee pit after letting the dogs out, the one who grabs the morning devotionals instead of Scooby Doo, and plans my day around an appointment calendar instead of mom’s agenda.

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We Need Time

While not exactly poetic in structure, the following is a series of thoughts and observations compiled one day. I hope you enjoy them and perhaps see yourself in a few of the lines.


Step out and fall
Stand tall.

Get it all right. Get it all wrong
Move out, move up and move along.

Change our preferences
Change our priorities.

Try and fail, try again and succeed
Know when to fight and when to concede

Make mistakes, learn from them
Hang on and let go
Discover moments to savor
Develop memories to treasure

Walk in the dark, find the light
Both grow dim and shine bright

Experiment, create, dream big
Experience, grow, hope and wish
Taste disappointment and glean from it

Weep, cry, laugh, choose
Smile, love and lose

Learn humility, stand proud
Show others and see for ourselves

Be a victim of circumstances
Change those circumstances

Mature, grow and feel
Discover, hurt and heal

Find the heart hidden within
Decide when to follow that heart

Hear that still small voice inside
Learn to trust that voice

Time to change our:

Goals, clothes and choices
Desires, directions and dreams
Tastes, attitudes and opinions
Styles, plans and habits

To reach a point where we care less what the world thinks and says
And more about what we need for ourselves.

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